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…how to make a Leprechaun trap? Mateo sure did. After some very careful drawing and planning, he came up with the perfect foil. And the muscled-out troll (or whatever he is) was the perfect guinea pig. He went straight for what looked like gold coins, but were in fact only their reflections. Apparently Leprechauns are not the wisest of creatures. And neither are trolls.

When I asked just what he would do if he were to catch a little green man, ,

"Of course I would let him out. But I don't know about Ruby. She might take him to the cleaners," Mateo replied.

"Take him to the cleaners?!" I asked (never mind where he learned that expression). "I don't think cats want to hurt Leprechauns, do they?"

"You never know, Mom. You never know."

Well okay then. Ruby I've got my eye on you. 

Happy St. Patrick's Day.

 

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A sunset/full moon kayak session in the Pacific. A first for me. There were so many elements to enjoy: the closeness to the water, being moved by the waves, tasting salty air, working in tandem with my love, seeing friends and making new ones, the brilliant and firery sunset, the feeling of accomplishment once it was over, the warm bath and peaceful sleep that followed. As with most things done in nature, it was a bit of life encapsulated. There was intention, community, doubt, suspense, joy, relief. All in three little hours. Perfect. 

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A quick whirl through the past week:

A sweet visit from Matt's father Paul: who delighted the boys with t-ball and some catch and release (although I don't think anything was actually caught, much to my relief.) Always such a pleasure to watch my children learn something new from their wisdom of their elders.

A first performance on stage: with Mateo portraying Hephaestus, the Greek god of fire. He practiced, he learned his lines, and I think overcame a little of his shyness that he sometimes struggles with.

There has been lots of bookmaking. More bookmaking than I ever remember. I wish I could pin point the inspiration, but as it is with most play in our house, the boys inspire each other.

And to top it all off, a chocolate cake recipe that came out exactly as I'd hoped, and that I adored. Not too dry, not too sweet, frosting not too buttery. When I was asked to make one for a friend's birthday party last weekend, I researched a little harder than usual and ended up piecing together two recipes from the book, Baked Explorations. We came home with a piece to savor bite by bite. Oh my, is it good. 

Classic Chocolate Cake

{adapted from Baked Explorations}

3/4 cup dark unsweetened cocoa powder (I used Scharffen Berger)

2/3 cup sour cream

2 2/3 cups all-purpose flour

2 tsp. baking powder

1 tsp. baking soda

1/2 tsp. salt

3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) softened unsalted butter, cut into 1-inch cubes

1/2 cup vegetable shortening

1 1/2 cups granulated sugar

1 cup firmly packed dark brown sugar

3 large eggs at room temperature

1 Tbsp. pure vanilla extract

Preheat oven to 325 degrees, Butter two 8-inch round cake pans, line with parchment paper and butter the parchment. Dust pans with flour and knock out excess.

In a medium bowl, mix cocoa powder and sour cream with 1 1/4 cups of hot water and set aside to cool. 

In a large bowl, sift the flour, baking soda, baking powder, and salt together and set aside.

Using a standing mixer fitted with the paddle attachment, beat the butter and shortening together on medium speed until light and fluffy, about 5-minutes. Add the sugars and beat on medium until light and fluffy, about 5 more mintes. Add the eggs, one at a time, mixing about 10 seconds after each addition until the egg is incorporated into the mixture, then turn the mixture to low, add the vanilla, and beat until incorporated.

Beginning with the dry ingredients, add the dry mixture and the cocoa mixture to the mixer bowl in three alternating parts, ending with dry.

Divide the batter among the prepared pans. Use an offset spatula to level the batter. Bake the cakes for 35 to 40 minutes, rotating pans halfway through the baking time, until a toothpick inserted comes out clean. Transfer the pans to a wire rack and cool for 30 to 45 minutes. The turn the cakes onto the rack and let them cool completely. Remove the parchment. At this point, I divided each layer in half, by first scoring the edge with a serrated knife, then gently pulling a piece of dental floss all the way through. Not easy people.  

Chocolate Frosting

1 cup (4 sticks) unsalted butter, softened

2 cups confectioners' sugar, sifted

2 Tbsp. pure vanilla extract

6 oz. good quality dark chocolate (60 to 72%), melted and cooled

In the bowl of a standing mixer fitted with paddle attachment, beat the butter on high speed until creamy, about 2 minutes. Add the confectioners' sugar all at once and beat until completely blended, about 2 minutes. Add the vanilla and beat for 15 seconds. Scrape down the bowl and add the melted, cooled chocolate. Beat until smooth, continuing to scrape down the sides of the bowl until the frosting is uniform in color.

Next week, I may try this skillet snack cake. Easy enough right?

 

 

 

 

 

To keep Mateo interested in photography, I bought him this little Lego digital camera a few months ago: 

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Since then, I can count on one hand the number of times I've seen him use it. I try not to be too pushy about stuff like this, either he's into it or he's not, and I truthfully kind of forgot about it. But recently we brought it out for a photography class he's taking after school, and when I went to see what, if anything, was on there, there were more pictures than I ever thought possible, probably around 300 pictures. He must have been doing it all on the sly. There were lots and lots of pictures of his toys, his books, his green blanket, stuff he looks at everyday and has an attachment to. But there were also some portraits that he took while we were driving somewhere (where or when this was, I couldn't tell you.)

Together they mirror, I think perfectly, just who he is: extremely silly, often dramatic, occasionally sad, but usually happy. Finding them taught me to remember that there are many layers to a child that aren't apparent but are captured in ways you can't expect. 

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{Enter sighing sound} Finally, finally, a day of rest. The neglect I've shown this little space of mine here is a direct measure of just what I have (and have not) been focusing on in my life. It wouldn't be my children, it wouldn't be our home life, it wouldn't be my health (although I was forced to focus on it last week when I couldn't get off the couch for four days), it wouldn't be our meals, it wouldn't be our explorations or creations. No, instead it would be stone yards, door warehouses, hardware stores, paint chip books. It would be earfuls of information on waterproofing window openings, J-metaling sheet rock, inset gutters, filtration pits, oh and so much more. As the dream of our little home gets closer and closer to reality, it has quickly taken over my life. And on top of all the other daily must-do's from grocery shopping, school drop-offs, karate pick-ups, dinner planning, bill paying, clothes washing, trimming hair and little nails, not to mention my work, well, I probably don't need to say much more. We've stolen little moments here and there, such as the tiny sojourn to the park, above. But…it's never been enough.

So blessedly, after running around non-stop the day before on house-related business, we had a day of relief. No one was sick, no one had any appointments or playdates. It was just the four of us. At the beach. 75 degrees. No clouds. Burritos and popsicles. Sand and saltwater. I was even able to take a nap there, which I have to say, may be one of the best things to do in the entire world. I woke up warm from the sun, glanced up at the boys (all the three of them) playing soccer, and just knew there couldn't be a better way to begin another very hectic week. 

 

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A simple, low-key weekend. Trying to start the New Year right with lots and lots of green. My kitchen smells like a health food store.

Green It Up Smoothie

1/2 cup coconut water

1 cucumber peeled and sliced

1 small handful of italian parsley

1 large handful of raw kale

1 small handful cilantro

1 cup fresh pineapple cut

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

1 tablespoon agave or honey

Small pinch of sea salt

Place coconut water, cucumber, pineapple, vanilla, agave and salt in a high speed blender. Begin to blend and add in greens and herbs through the hole in the top. Continue to blend until smooth. 

 

Simple Lime Fennel Salad

4 cups mixed greens

1/2 fennel bulb, sliced thin like on a mandolin

small handful of mint, minced

small handful of basil, julienned

1/2 avocado

1/2 cup pepitas

1 teaspoon spirulina

2 limes juiced, plus 1/2 teaspoon lime zest

3 Tbsp. extra virgin olive oil

1 tsp. agave

1/2 tsp. sea salt

With a fork, blend together lime juice and zest, spirulina, olive oil, agave and salt together (it will be a small amount of dressing. Double or triple if you want more for later.) Pour over salad. I always like to add a few more flakes of sea salt over the top.

 

The year ended just right with an inaugural visit to the snow up in the San Jacinto mountains near Palm Springs. It was the first time the boys had ever seen, felt, or tasted it, and what a sight it was. Nico rolled around literally like a pig in mud, giggling, burying himself, and eating so much snow that he got the hiccups. The joy of watching your children discover something new never, ever gets old. 

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{Nico eating his collard greens for money, and his black-eyed peas for luck on New Year's Day.}

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{The last sunset, and was it a beauty.}

I have been reflecting much more, it feels, on the year 2010 than I have any other. The night of New Year's Day, I was up to almost two in the morning, thinking and replaying back all the sweet, intense, challenging, life-changing moments that our family experienced. It was a full and adventurous year indeed.

For 2011, my hope is that we continue to get closer and closer to our truest and best selves. That our transition into our new home in the next few months will be as smooth and joyous as I imagine. And that the four of us will continue discovering the world together as passionately as possible. 

And I also want to thank each and every one of you for being on this journey with me, with us. I'm so glad you're here. 

 

 

 

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The baking blitz of 2010 is officially over, with every little crumb spoken for. It's always a treat (wink, wink) to hear which is someone's particular favorite, some are thin-crispy people, others are chewy, gooey people. As always, I tried to create a mixtape of sorts that incorporated a little of everything (some spice, some crunch, some chocolate, some chili heat, some citrus.) I spent many days searching for the right cookies: online, in books, new recipes, old recipes. But as much as I tried to fight it, what I kept coming back to was good, old Martha Stewart. (I just skipped right over her "For the Health-Conscious" section.) So with the exception of Joy the Baker and my own little bar concoction, I have Martha to thank. And while the making of it all was certainly hairy (somehow hand cream-making got thrown in there somewhere), the sweetness of creating and giving always makes it worth it in the end. So here in all it's sugar-laced, butter-gorged splendor are the recipes. 
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Lacy Coconut Cookies
from Martha Stewart's Holiday Cookies
{makes about 6 dozen}

2/3 cup all-purpose flour
1-3/4 cup powdered sugar
1/2 tsp. salt
2/3 cup unsweetened coconut milk
1 tsp. pure vanilla extract
1 cup unsweetened shredded coconut 
5 Tbsp. unsalted butter, melted

Preheat oven to 350-degrees. Whish to combine flour, powdered sugar and salt in a bowl. Pour in coconut milk, and stir until well combined. Stir in vanilla and shredded coconut. Add butter and stir until combined. Chill 30 minutes.

Drop a heaping teaspoon of batter onto a baking sheet lined with a nonstick baking mat. Using the back of a spoon, gently spread into a circle about 3-1/2 inches in diameter. Repeat, spacing circles about 3 inches apart.

Bake, rotating sheet halfway through, until cookies are flat and edges are golden, 8 to 10 minutes. Let cool on sheets on wire racks 5 minutes. Transfer cookies to racks using an offset spatula.; let cool completely. Wipe mats and cool sheets between batches. Cookies can be stored in an airtight container between layers of parchment at room temperature up to 3 days. 

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Toffee Almond Squares with Maldon
by Mama Pebble
{makes about 2 dozen}

2 cups all-purpose flour
1-1/2 tsp. baking soda
1 tsp. salt
1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, softened
1 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup packed light brown sugar
2 large eggs, room temperature
2 tsp. pure vanilla extract
12 oz. Scharffen Berger (or comparable) semi-sweet chocolate chips
2 cups roasted almonds, chopped
3 cups toffee pieces, chopped
1/4 cup Maldon salt

Preheat oven to 375-degrees. Whisk to combine flour, baking soda, and salt in a bowl. In a separate bowl, beat butter and both sugars with an electric mixer on medium-high speed until fluffy, 3 to 4 minutes. Add eggs 1 at a time, beating well after each, mix in vanilla.

Reduce speed to low, and add flour mixture; mix until just combined. Stir in toffee chips. Spread mixture onto a parrchment-lined rectangular pan (leaving enough parchment up and over the sides of the pan to create something like cradle for the mix, so its easier to pull out once it's done.) 

Bake, rotating pan halfway through, until golden brown and done in the center, about 18 to 20 minutes. Once out of the oven, immediately sprinkle chopped chocolate, almonds, and salt over the top. Allow to cool completely before grabbing the sides of the parchment and placing on a cookie sheet to cut into 1-1/2-inch squares.

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Pepita Spice Cookies
from Martha Stewart's Holiday Cookies
{makes about 8 dozen}

3/4 cup hulled green pumpkin seeds (pepitas)
1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, softened
1 cup powdered sugar, plus more for dusting
3/4 tsp. pure vanilla extract
1-1/2 tsp. ground cinnamon
1/2 tsp. ground ginger
1/2 tsp. freshly grated nutmeg
1/8 tsp. allspice
1 tsp. salt
2 cups all-purpose flour

Heat a heavy skillet, such as cast iron, over medium-low. Add pepitas, and shake gently to move seeds around so they toast evenly and do not burn. Toast seeds until they are aromatic and barely take on color. Allow them to cool slightly. Pulse seeds in a food processor just until finely chopped.

Beat butter and powdered sugar with an electric mixer on medium-high speed until pale and fluffy, 3 to 4 minutes. Add vanilla, cinnamon, ginger, nutmeg, allspice, salt and chopped pepitas, and beat until well combined. Reduce speed to low, and gradually mix in flour, scraping down side of bowl as necessary. Divide dough into 2 disks, and wrap in plastic. Chill 90 minutes or up to 1 day.

Preheat oven to 325-degrees. On a lightly floured surface, roll 1 disk of dough to 1/4-inch thickness. Transfer to a parchment-lined baking sheet, and chill 1 hour. Repeat with the remaining disk. Using a 2-inch cookie cutter, cut out shapes. Re-roll scraps of dough and cut more shapes. Transfer shapes to to parchment-lined cookie sheets, spacing 2 inches apart and chill 15 minutes.

Bake, rotating sheets halfway through until golden brown around edges, 20 to 22 minutes. et cookies cool completely on a wire rack. Dust with powdered sugar through a sieve or sifter. 
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Lemon/Lime Sables
{makes about 18 cookies}

2 sticks unsalted butter, at room temperature
1/2 cup granulated sugar
1/4 cup powdered sugar, sifted before measuring
1/2 tsp. salt, preferably sea salt
2 large egg yolks, preferably at room temperature
2 cups all-purpose flour
zest of 1 lemon and lime
For decoration:
1 egg yolk
crystal or dazzle sugar

Working in a mixer fitted with a paddle attachment, beat the butter at medium speed until it is smooth and very creamy. Rub the zest of the lemon and lime into the granulated sugar with your fingertips, creating a fragrant sugar.  Add the sugars and salt to the butter and continue to beat until smooth and velvety, not fluffy and airy, about 1 minute. Reduce the mixer speed to low and beat in 2 egg yolks, again beating until well blended.

Turn off the mixer, pour in the flour, drape a kitchen towel over the mixer and pulse the mixer about 5 times at low speed for 1 or 2 seconds each time. Take a peek; if there is still a lot of flour on the surface of the dough, pulse a couple of more times; if not, remove the towel. Continuing at low speed, stir for about 30 seconds more, just until the flour disappears into the dough and the dough looks uniformly moist. If you still have some flour on the bottom of the bowl, stop mixing and use a rubber spatula to work the rest of it into the dough. (The dough will not come together in a ball — and it shouldn’t. You want to work the dough as little as possible. What you’re aiming for is a soft, moist, clumpy dough. When pinched, it should feel a little like Play-Doh.)

Scrape the dough onto a work surface, gather it into a ball and divide it in half. Shape each piece into a smooth log about 9 inches long (it’s easiest to work on a piece of plastic wrap and use the plastic to help form the log). Wrap the logs well and chill them for at least 2 hours. The dough may be kept in the refrigerator for up to 3 days or frozen for up to 2 months.

When ready to bake, center a rack in the oven and preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Line a baking sheet with a silicone baking mat or parchment paper and keep it at the ready.

To decorate the edges of the sables, whisk the egg yolk until smooth. Place one log of chilled dough on a piece of waxed paper and brush it with yolk (the glue), and then sprinkle the entire surface of the log with sugar. Trim the ends of the roll if they are ragged and slice the log into 1/3-inch-thick cookies.

Place the rounds on the baking sheet, leaving an inch of space between each cookie, and bake for 17 to 20 minutes, rotating the baking sheet at the halfway point. When properly baked, the cookies will be light brown on the bottom, lightly golden around the edges and pale on top. Let the cookies rest 1 or 2 minutes before carefully lifting them onto a cooling rack with a wide metal spatula. Repeat with the remaining log of dough. (Make sure the sheet is cool before baking each batch.)

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Mexican Hot Chocolate Cookies

from Martha Stewart's Holiday Cookies

[makes about 3 dozen} 

2-1/4 cups all-purpose flour
1/2 cup unsweetened cocoa powder (preferably Scharffen Berger, it really is the best you can get)
2 tsp. cream of tartar
1 tsp. baking soda
1/2 tsp. coarse salt
1 cup (2 sticks) unsalted butter, softened
1-3/4 cups granulated sugar 
2 large eggs at room temperature
2 tsp. ground cinnamon
1/2 tsp. ground chile, such as arbol, chipotle or ancho)

Preheat oven to 400-degrees. Whisk to combine flour, cocoa powder, cream of tartar, baking soda, and salt in a bowl. In a separate bowl, beat butter and 1-1/2 cups sugar with an electric mixer on meduim-high speed until pale and fluffy, 3 to 4 minutes. Scrape down side of bowl. Add eggs, and beat to combine. Reduce speed to low, and gradually add flour mixture; beat until combined.

In a small bowl, combine remaining 1/4 cup sugar, the cinnamon and chile. Form heaping tablespoons of dough balls and roll in cinnamon-sugar mixture. Place on parchment-lined baking sheets, spacing 3 inches apart. Bake, rotating sheets halfway through, until cookies are set in center and begin to crack, about 10 minutes. Let cool on sheets on wire racks about 5 minutes, then transfer to racks to cool completely. Cookies can be stored in an airtight container at room temperature up to 1 week. 

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After days of relentless rain, and in the brief pause before another stronger storm hits in the next few hours, I am relieved we are all home–warm and dry. It's the kind of weather event that we don't get that often here. The ping pinging of raindrops down the gutters no longer seems new. 

It is weather fit for a quiet Winter Solstice celebration. We've done various things over the years with different friends, but tonight felt right to have just our four souls around the fire drinking Chai (decaf) with marshmallows and sharing and giving each other our solstice paintings. 

Mateo was especially pleased. "It's so nice to, you know…sit around the fire…drinking some tea…my belly's warm…I want to do this every time." 

Together we celebrated the longest night, the beginning of the return of Spring, and the full moon (which was hidden behind the rain clouds) in a way that left me feeling replenished in these final days of creating, executing, and giving. 

"You darkness, that I come from,
I love you more than all the fires
that fence in the world,
for the fire makes
a circle of light for everyone,
and then no one outside learns of you.

But the darkness pulls in everything;
shapes and fires, animals and myself,
how easily it gathers them!—
powers and people—
and it is possible a great energy
is moving near me.
I have faith in nights."
-  Rainer Maria Rilke, On Darkness

 

Happy Solstice to all.